So much of my thoughts lately drift to the future...
What happens after I walk across that stage and take hold of my diploma?

My thoughts have gotten more serious...
mainly because that's the way life goes...

I want so badly to follow God...
to go and be exactly where he wants me...
and I'm being equipped in so many ways that it's difficult to know which way to go.

I analyze and plan...
it's what I do...
this is God reassuring me that he's in control...
to trust him without giving it another thought.

My head has been running constantly with thoughts lately.
With Saturday staring me in the face, looking back on the life I might have had...
I cannot convey with words the feelings that are whirling around in the depths of my soul.

But there is a picture...
one that struck me and took my breath away.
In it contained all that I felt and couldn't say...
in it I saw God..

Driving alone on a dusty dirt road...
on the back country roads in the heart of Indiana...
lay fields and fields of lushious green crops...
fields farther than the eye can see...
hair whipping in the wind...
as I stare to the West I am overwhelmed by the setting sun...
set perfectly in the middle of the evening sky...
a brilliant orange surrounded by a sky of deep blues, reds, and purples...
I've never seen a more beautiful sunset...
a more calming moment...
a moment where God calmed my spirit and overcame me with a love and peace that words don't do justice.

And in that moment, all alone on that worn and beaten road...
I was reminded of God's faithfulness...
of his incredible and neverending love...
of the future and the hope he's promised to me...
of all that my life holds as a disciple of Christ...

And that moment brought a smile to my face...
because no matter where I go in a year, who I meet along the way, or whatever might come up...
God is still sovereign...
he will use me where ever I am...
and as long as I strive to grow and love in his name...
I can't go wrong...

Why analyze, why worry?
My God is bigger than my thoughts and my worries...
he holds my heart in his hands...
and I learn more and more each and every day that I continue to place myself in the center of his will for me.

You know what I say to that?
Amen and Hallelujah.
I am yours.
The end.

Still alive for all who were wondering...

three weeks of my internship done and gone...

Summer is flying by.

To all who are in Florissant - I'll be home for a day this week and I hope to see all your friendly faces! : )